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i'll hold the door please come in and just sit here for a while this is my way of telling you i need you in my life its so cold without your touch i've been dreaming way too much can we just turn this into reality cause i been thinking 'bout you lately maybe you can save me from this crazy world we live in i know we could happen cause you know that i've been feeling you storms try will come but i know that the sun will come again he's my friend and he says that we belong together and i'll sing a song to break the ice just a smile from you would suffice its not me being nice but this is real tonight cause i been thinking 'bout you lately maybe you can save me from this crazy world we live in i know we could happen cause you know that i've been feeling you

Monday, October 31, 2011

halloween - lunatic asylum

lunatic asylum, the tittle given for the zsa zsa zsu fun pub for this year's halloween party. hee, like i told you before, i joined them with those halloween costumes, woww, so cool! finally got the pictures during the party, really excited to show la, hee

my make up during the night

woww, this is my first time celebrating this halloween lunatic scene. and it was awesome! wish to get more of this next time, can i? well look at those freaky faces.. lol.. there is faces with witches, dracula, vampire, predator, pysco, insane, zombie..


Sunday, October 30, 2011

halloween night.

yeah, we don't celebrate actually but im just supporting the hotel bha. im also excited to wear my zombie costume, hee, so fun looking at others, and become one of them. what i love is the make up, cool, my make up are super awesome! i mix the stuff im using, lol, and what did i get? all burns on my face, err, not that kind of burning but feels like burning, yeah, but for just a while, don't worry.

hmm, last night, i went to church at 5pm, then waited for cyril and constance, hmm. they're sitting together and i was like, am i disturbing you guys? lol. no la kidding.. anyway, constance @ epi wore grey in colour! cool, i love grey and brown in colour so far... err, bla bla this bla bla that, nothing special for me, but there's something sprecial for cyril, he gave constance this candy sweet, cool, so adorable of you ^^ hope you liked it constance... hee, its like me giving her plak kn.. hoho, bha then after church i head to hotel and call putih in her room.

and then, i went up to 1406 that is their room number.. hee, looking at them getting their make up ready, this and that.. bha, me next!! putih wipe my face with this err product (i forgot what it is) err, i think moisturizer??? like bedak sejuk bha, ee!! okay continue..... she darken my eyelid, making it more scarier.. cool, now i look like a vampire, but wait this step are done yet.. i gave putih this fake blood to place on my lips, making it look realistic zombie... hee, at last completed stage one, haha! really look like a zombie, but then i still not satisfy, so put some kotex (nail polish) on my mouth, woww! its was cool at first then it started to burn, but when i put on my neck to make it look like i got slashed on my neck, it don't feel pain or burn luckily for me. i think it is because of my skin on the mouth area are thin and easily got tear. hmm, (thinking of something)

moving on.... then its 10 o'clock at night, so we're like crazy group of people went into the zsa zsa zsu fun pub, okay, so fun! i dance my best and my rest out there. its all whole out of world there. but its looks like something was missing bha, i really don't feel good being in there. but i keep on pushing that thoughts aside and keep partying! yeah this is my night! 

okay my personal battery hasn't low yet, so im still have enough energy to go wild. hmm, but i can't express everything la, so weird la - - hmm, okay then while at the party, i was like starving for food... huu.. no food provided bha, ee. buruknya, so cyril and i went all over the building just to look for food, nah!! finally we got one, bha apa lagi, kongsi kongsi la sma boss pauji and ida, hee... still not kenyang yet la... it feels like not eating plak. anyway thank you for the food.. oh yeah, constance did text me but i didn't manage to reply because my credit has expired... sorry...

okay after partying, cyril and i went up to our room at 1421. cool room we had, hee. so grateful.. hmm.. take my bath and clean myself, and went straight to bed, hmm, this funny moment i had when cril robert srated a conversation, so when i was about to talk, he fall asleep, lol. cool! what was that cyril, i was like laughing to myself  hahahaha. then i set my alrm at 6.30am, but as a awake at that time, i turn off my alarm and went to sleep again, then at seven, safwan my receptionist friend woke me up, then i went to sleep again - - last but not least at 8 am, i suddenly got excited and jump to cyril's bed.. hee. so naughty kn, hahahaha. but i don't wanna miss this moment, so i wake him up.. ee he still in his bed at that time, so i keep on waking him up, hhahaa, pity cyril ^^

okay its 9.30am now and we're heading to the church canteen to have our breakfast... cool, breakfast! hee, after a while ivy came together with reine, hee, reine looks down sleepy exhausted and heavy? lol... now i know what did they did last night, hmm, not to be told! anyway, nathanil my best friend came and we were like awkwrd ne, for him la, haha. bha, next i brought them all two of them to my room, hee, (belum check out lagi) hhaha, its still 11am bha, so i requested 12pm check out bha.... :P :P :P waa, siok la we are all getting crazy together when ryan the most crazy among us join us, haha, i pick him up from the lobby and and straight to our room, hee, so fun la, but the most painful for me is when reine bump her head, so pity o, really wanna kiss her head that time but unfortunately i didn't, hmm. sorry, yeah i know you won't like it. ...... hoho

there's some video of us doing stuff.. just wait ryan will upload it later on.. hee, can;t wait to see them again and again bha.. hee, everybody are crazy, no exception! hahaha. bha, now 12pm sudah, so cyril is already waiting for us at the lobby, so here we are walking around no fix place to go... at last we went to the food court, and take our lunch, hmm, i took singaporean mee, hee, nice! second timer!! they rest nasi kuning, mee sup, and ect. thank you cyril for the treat. next time let hang out again, my treat... okay, next we went to see reine's parents at the first floor, okay, shake their hands, ask for their blessing, its good you know, hee... at that time i started to keep silent (secret to myself) so reine asked me whats wrong, she with her funny way, lol, i wish i could be as happy as her for that time, but... yeah there's something...

so they brought us to lunch (again) hee... so funny, all thanks to ivy... you sneaky mouse, hahahhaa. okay, so we went to this chinese restaurant. and i ordered nasi ayam steam, well it don't taste as good as eastern's.... hmm... while easting reine offers me to carry my bag, aww, so sweet of her, and my jacket, cool. wish that i can get her..hmm, (we could happen) okay after we're done with our lunch, thank you aunty and uncle, i didn't say thank you did i?? sorry, i got silent instantly just now, sorry.. i should be happy instead right? but then, okay next tiem okay??? when will you get a chance to be with your lover's parents? once in a life time is it?? now you know... hmmm... 

bha, i went home as usual but htis time aerlier all thanks to cyril my buddy, for lending me his pocket money, RM 2... appreciate it so much! for this and all of my stuff that i couldn't remember, please forgive me. thank you

Saturday, October 29, 2011


belt. pants. shoes.

i like this one, its so cool when wearing them, im going to look for this next month. cyril, cantik kn ^^ lets go and shop for your bag and lots.... hee

oh what a day!

yesterday was a very awful day - - at first it was fine, but then the end of my shift, it started to get bad, i got a lot of mistake, i didn't check three rooms the day before yesterday, woww. can you believe it?? three rooms. then luckily, ms RC, my assistant manager helped me. im gonna have to pay if nobody help me with this. im so shocked that time, i don't know what to do. same like my previous situation - -. cool??? nope, i don't think so...

next, i went to this magic store to look for fake vampire teeth, so sad i couldn't find one. then my best friend showed up, he's telling me i got more mistakes again (again). okay, now he's freaking me out. what else could i do wrong? huhh! i've been enough mistakes before, bro, i don't need some more stress. please next time don't do it okay? i'm sorry, but its good to tell then to keep. just to let you know. thats what a best friend will do... thank you, and he did cheered me up also, hee..... reine.... once i heard her name, i smile bha, hee. thank you

err, then i got home and call reine, just to release all my tension.. well, she did pull out my depression out of my head.. she didn't know i was in stress by the way.. hee.. she was still asleep at that time, so i constantly woke her up, lol... i wanna hear she talk bha so woke her up la :P :P :P :P :P she told me about her grades she got recently la, this and that. AWESOME!! she got number one in her class, cool, she beat all of her friends in class including amanda and fung.. im very proud of you reine, and i promise to give you a special present did i? hee, you just wait okay... our other story is about halloween and stuffs, lol. so excited!!

after talking to her, i went to take my dinner.... with my family, then i told them if i could stay at my hotel after the halloween celebration, huu, sadly, they didn't allow me... luckily i posted this today than yesterday... because i could be cursing a lot yesterday... merajuk kan tu la mau memaki, huu, sorry :D but look at this, my parents said that i never say NO to my friend's invitation... but hey, i did!!! thats why i don't tell you because i know that is the stupid invitation, so i did think what i do okay!! not to express my anger, but just to tell... i don't talk back, yet... so, just wait...

then next, i went up to my room and text cyril to call me, okay he call... he don't understand my silent, so he hang up.. okay c: then i fall asleep till 10pm, my dad went in my room and wish me good night, okay then i was up, feeling confused, what time is it?? weird day!! i'm dreaming bha this kn??? full of question o, i thought im suppose to get to work, then i paused for a moment, then think.. hmm, got bored, then sleep la...

................the next day.............

i was up early at 5am, went to the toilet then get back to sleep, hee. woke up again at 9am, my dad went into my room, and told me this "i love you (kissing my forehead) i love you more daddy ;D

.................currently online...............

Thursday, October 27, 2011

naa, sya nampak kau, haha

guess who am i looking at?

you? noooo...

come on keep on guessing

well, come here...

honestly i wasn't looking at you,
i was looking at that sweet girl
who is looking at me right now.

i like this one.

look at how that guy looking at that girl.
he looks so sweet trying to unveil the girl's expression.

what i like about you

hi sorry i use this picture as my next story.. because i love it when you smile, nampak semua gigi yang kau ada, hee :D everytime i call you, you always have something to say even when im in silent. i love to hear you share, because thats what i take to trust you. when you share something to me i began to trust you with my heart not only with my brain. even some part makes me hurt but its your truth that is making it more interesting, when ever im in silent jst continue, ignore my silent. because im starting to understand you with all my heart soul and body. ee, the i like it when you tell me your daily routine. i appreciate it. i sure wish you're not going to break any part of my heart. instead fix it with you love.

p/s : i love you


cool, i've seen those photos of our shooting session. wanna see them? hee, wait bha sya cerita dulu ne.. pada suatu hari.. haha.. oh yeah, i tell you lil fun fact la about my partner in shooting aa, err.. i used to like her, like crushes something like that before. so i was like hitting on her, trying to woe her with my move. i guess nothing works right? if do, you'll see me with her right now together, in love. but, naaaaaaahhh.. forget it, it won't be, and never be.. so tukar la.. anyway, shes older than me.. most of my ex are older than me, so what?? hee got problem?? hee

this was taken from brenda's camera i think. cool, we got second photographer here. when the first is busy, the second one take chances, lol. some more, my face looks stiff right??? do not lie, tell me, my face looks like im acting right? hahaha

another picture of me doing something weird with my face. hahahaha. i think i should not smile like that, ee.. okay set, throw my smile away and make a new smile, hee. i like it when girl smiles like that. its suites them what ever face they have

looking at this picture makes me think of her. we did dance to so close song together right. feel so close bha, if only you feel what i feel. sorry to say la ya priscilla, jangan plak kau merajuk sya tidak ingat kau bila shooting ne. jangan salah faham.. hee. and thank you ya kasih letak profile picture kau yang ne naa picture, i like o, sya suka. wanna make you ex jealous aa?? lol..

Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Yeah, I know, I know, when I compliment her she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look ok, I say

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are(yeah)

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say

I really can't stay
(but baby it's cold outside)
I've got to go away
(but baby it's cold outside)
This evening has been
(been hoping that you'd drop in)
So very nice
(i'll hold your hands, they're just like ice)
My mother will start worry
(beautiful whats your hurry)
My father will be pacing the floor
(listen to the fireplace roar)
So really i'd better scurry
(beautiful please don't hurry)
but maybe just a half a drink more
(put some records on while i pour)
the neighbors might faint
(baby it's bad out there)
say what's in this drink
(no cabs to be had out there)
i wish i knew how
(your eyes are like starlight now)
to break this spell
(i'll take your hat, your hair looks swell)
i ought to say "no, no, no sir"
(mind if i move in closer)
at least i'm gonna say that i tried
(what's the sense in hurtin' my pride)
i really can't stay
(oh baby don't hold out)

heee, like mother
like daughter.
so cute kn, naa,
anak beranak model ne,

Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

(people chatting)

I can't get your smile out of my mind
[I can't get you out of my mind]
I think about your eyes all the time
You're beautiful but you don't even try
(You don't even, don't even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless, over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again
Hopeless, head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless
Baby can't you see?

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me


That should be me,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my
It's working 'cause you know that,...

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

plant house day

today i had a really fun day off. actually i asked for my day off for today because there's this one of my friend invited me to be her model partner. hee waa so excited this, so i agreed! all my life modelling is all i wanna be. soo yesterday i asked ms slyvia for my request, but ms riza not approve at first. naa but ms slyvia back me up ,, hee

the ccame the day i've been waiting for. i woke up at 9.30am wash my face, take some breakfast and went online. hee, after that i got ready at 12pm i left home and went to town by bus, i stop by the tailor to sew something (nothing you should know about) hahaha

naa, at 3pm they pick me up at eastern plaza then right away to plant house. i didn't bring my shoe - - what a waste. ee. okay at first its kinda awkward. but then okay la, boleh la, hahahaha. im getting along with the families. i got my partner for shooting already, c priscilla prisca bong, hee. thank you for her, i am here to fulfill my dream, lol. this are the pictures taken by kakak, hee... not aunty aa :D but the professional photo of us i haven't see yet. later i'll upload them as soon as i got it okay :3

Monday, October 24, 2011


after my shift at 7am, i repeat 7am!! i went to take my breakfast at restaurant something - - i forgot what is it. anyway, i went with my assistant manager RC and 'ucuk' lol, our night audit.. after that we went back to hotel to sent me and ucuk. on our way back, theres this traffic officer stop us and i was like woww, cool, my first arrest!! hahaha so funny la, rupanya road tax mati, hee. bha.. after saman this saman that. i went to church to sit with reine ivy and marc, together with rex her lil brother.

after the church ended. i went to meet reine's parents. asked them where're they going next. they wanted to go to tamu bha, hee. bha so we waited there at the church canteen for the time to pass. hmmmmmmmmmmm... at the church hall there this friend of mine, my best friends!! vexter and cyril. woww, they were doing this dance practice for this coming event. 

after that, reine and her family went home, but before that.. i saw reinde giving me this signal to go to eastern, naa, so i waited there la again alone.. after a few boring moment, i went online next to the eastern plaza. check this and that on fb. hee. then i called reine whether shes coming or what, woww. what surprise me is that, she almost walk alone to eastern form taman setia there at sin onn - - i was like she'd do this for me?? woww, cool. because shes said she already so called promise to me that we're going to meet up at eastern. so finally the four of them walked together from taman setia to eastern.. woww!!

after they reach here, amanda text me and told me to go to the food court and lepak with them, hee. bha so i went down la, at the food court, i saw my big boss ms rizalee, hee. the front office manager. she smile and i smile la, hee. anyway. we chi and we chat this and merepek stuff. lol. so fun la with those four people. sna, ada la tu mainan dorang, we started to play "goft" using ice cube and straw .. and playing guess where, oh gosh, i lose at that game and you know what.. they challenge me to go to the women's bathroom.. and i was like, gosh alala.. so on my way tu kn, i met this girl, my lil crush, hee, tidak tau la.. 

hee, shes my youngest ex gf i had when i was in form 2 or 4 err??? forgot o.. lagipn, don't think shes serious.. and also me hmm... naa, back to my story... i wanted to meet her shake shake her hand and hug her and .... hahaha. no la, just say hi, and she'd say hey.. hee, cool. bha, limpas limpas sja kami, sinyum sinyum.. so kami p la ne tandas perempuan mau masuk, but i can't im not crazy enough bha that... with my sleepy head i couldn't do it, sorry guys... moving on.. we headed on to servay doing crazy stuff. hahaha, we actually recorded our moment.. pictures together!! cool laa..

we even go to our tempat lepak!! we caught this one security, hee. dating with his gf doing this and that stuff i guess. naa, hahahaha!! we on the other side doing freaky stuff... ee best la, tidak jadi mengantuk, haha... the funny thing is, i don't care if we don't get the chance to get together for only both of us, at least we have each other where we can hang out as a gang, as a friend!! but for you.. i just wait and smile. look how patient i am... theres an ups and downs on my feeling ne, sometimes you make me wanting you, and sometime you make me feel you wanting me.. you've taken my heart. 

hoho. i rember that you wrote MR on this board in servay .. i miss that moment... err. yeah la, thats all la i want to tell... i'll continue when im in the mood. bha. thank you. 

Sunday, October 23, 2011


ada ne naa satu budak. sya pangggil dia c rex, nakal bha budak ne, adik siapa la bha kn, hee. this is reine's lil brother. he has a very cute eyes with long eye lashes. every girl would be lucky to get her someday, soon, but not now, hes still a little boy bha, hee. dia suruh sya tukar dp d blog sya, so sya tukar la, sebab underaged tidak boleh tngk kn, hoho. nnt baru sya tukar balik la aa. :D

csa nite 2011

first of all i would like to thank you God for giving me this chance to perform my fav song to my one. hee. i personally dedicate we could happen song to regina angel emol. specially thank to you for being my partner and for supporting me in what im doing. i love you for that.. then im so excited to do my best even though i got a lot of mistakes but yeah its worth my time being with you! im sorry if my voice sounded like im forcing myself to sing but thats the way i do. in my opinion, the previous csa nite are better, no offence btw. but to tell you the truth bha kn.. i don't feel like im in a csa nite with the lights from the audience's side was on.. should be off next time, anyway okay bha!! hee. i would like to share this picture on of my friend took.

we could happen

this picture taken by brenda my friend. hee. so cute looking la kn, hee. i really enjoy singing, but too bad my voice doesn't really allow me to sing. hahahahaha! im trying to create more sweetness between reine and i.

i know you want me to
i know you want me to

papapapapapapapa ^^

Thursday, October 20, 2011

why am i so afraid to lose you, when you're not even mine?

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

picture dulu dulu

kevin & marvyn

as i pass my photos i stop to look at this lovely photo of me and kevin, i think we were close before. lupa sudah la, but the weird think is i never remember taking picture with him, weird huh - - anyway just wanna share with all, hee. the one who edit this is joanne. lol, looks so funny, like budak budak kn, but its okay bha, its funny to look at those old photos and laugh at yourself. bha...




i'd like to share with you bloggers
my friends from church. they are


i miss english drama

 i joined the english drama when i was 16. it was a coincident when a friend of mine brought me into the 'dewan' just to see their practice. then suddenly, they ask me to replace afiq hidayat my friend from school, i don't know what the reason, i forgot - - but then i agreed on joining them. and i never regret to do so because  im thankful to God for giving me the chance to act in front of all the audience from different state. from that experience i can learn how to communicate better in english. fyi my english sucks really bad before. when i was in primary school i did join the coral speaking, won the first place and went to sandakan for the national. i believe my english that time was great! but as i stay away from speaking english, i get lost. now im trying to speaking in english as fluent as possible. anyway... english drama...

see that picture on the right? thats me pouring my real tears just for the drama, its so cool to cry in front of everybody. i just thhink of sad things to shed my tears, plus the sound effect brings up my enthusiastic to cry. its so cool if you see it yourself rather than i tell the story. but if im not mistaken my teacher got kept the video recording of our presentation. i wanted to have one for my memory. yerr, teacher give me bha, hee.

at first, i got this feeling that we are going to win the kebangsaan. eleh :P minta puji, hahaha. feel extied this that we won. but you know what, after we won the kebangsaan, we will still be competing on the same school, that is our school - -

but anyway we won again. this time we when to sandakan, a place where our dreams are supposed to be fulfill. haha. but then suddenly ruin. huu... the smoke machine doesn't work, our atmosphere don't look alive, its like a playground for the dead, - - what la... i wonder where did this trophy had been placed? hoho, oh yeah, i forgot to tell, i also got this appreciation trophy, it says 'Pecerita Lkon Layar Terbaik' COOL! at least i got one for my semangat, he. thank you all for the support. 

i trade them my face form mary's ipod? mp something? well, just to listen to lucky by jason mraz over and over again, haha. so funny la that moment. then you know what, its fun to go out with the team, we also went to taman buaya. sounds awesome right? first we thought that teacher agnes and angelina was mad at us, yeah deap within they are i believe. but the next day, they brought us to see buaya, hee, its like a zoo bha. pnya siok!! we even saw monkey making love, lol, doing their stuff... lastly i would like to say a very most thank you to you dear teacher agnes and teacher angelina, without you guiding us, we are nothing, you teach us with much enthusiasm, motivation and love. i love you teachers. thank you.